I Wish - Part One

This is a fictitious short story. Any resemblance and similarity are coincidences.

My eyes darted on the wide opened Chemistry book but my mind is somewhere else far from the compounds and experiments.

I was reminiscing the night, around 10 years ago.
I don't know why but the memory, the incident flashed into my mind so clearly this time.

********

3 A.M, I ran to the bathroom anxiously. I switched on all the lights, all the way to the bathroom. I forced myself to go alone. Ummi said there's no such things as ghosts. Even if there was one, it won't disturb me because I'm a good girl.

 And I don't want to wake Along. Ummi said she was not well.
I can see that. She always coughed and had a very terrible headache that made her moaned. Like Abi used to have.
It seems painful but I never saw her cried. Not even once. Like Abi...

After a while, I ran back to the bed but I found Along already woke up.

"Did you go to the toilet, Aisha?" Along asked.

"Yes", I answered.

"Alone?"

I nodded enthusiastically.

"Why don't you wake me? Aren't you scared?" while rubbing her eyes

"Ummi said you're not well and not to wake you up, so....I..",

Along smiled and listened to my story attentively.

"....so, there's no need to be afraid!", I finished my last sentence.

"Waaah, you're so brave now", she praised me with her hand on my bushy hair.

Then, she got off the bed with all her might. Looking frail and weak, I assisted her.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I want to perform 'salah'. Do you want to join?"

***To be continued***
 

It Is Certain

Nothing is certain

We can't make sure that we gonna graduate one day

We can't make sure we'll get married

We can't also make sure that we'll see tomorrow

You can't even make sure that you'll finish reading this post

But one thing is certain...

Death.


Be ready. It'll come any second, anywhere.
It can't be avoided.

No matter how much you plead, beg and cry. Your life will still be taken away
And that's the bridge to the afterlife

All that's left, heaven and hell. Which would you choose?

Not even one person would wanna choose hell.
But are you qualified enough for Heaven?

Think about it.

Do something.

Now.

The clock is ticking

Death won't delay.

No Regrets

Have you ever hope that you could rewind the time so badly and did the right thing?

That's what I felt when I was in Form 1.

At that time, I moved  to Maahad Hamidiah after three months at SAMTTAJ. I don't know why, but I just move without telling my SAMTTAJ friends, at all.

And I felt really guilty about it.

Then, I reached Maahad, expecting to see Maziah, my best friend during primary school. Coincidently, I was put in the same class with her. I was really happy because everyone were strangers but her. The others did try to be friendly with me but still, I feel lonely.

Maziah seemed so excited too when she saw me. She helped me with everything. Unfortunately, I didn't get the hostel offer, YET. So, I became 'budak luar' for a few days.

I was alone. Completely alone, I felt like I wanna cry. But when I saw my mother, fetching me after school, my heart scream, "I'm out of here!". At home, I begged my mother that I wanna go back to SAMTTAJ but she refused. My father already paid the fee and she said that I'll get used to my new school someday.

Well, I don't have any choice but to stay at Maahad.

I really hated myself for moving to Maahad at that time.

Why did I decide to move? I really hated myself for taking that decision.

And there was this morning, I reached Maahad quite early. I sat in the class alone. I looked around the class 1 Abu Bakar and shut my eyes for a few minutes, hoping that all of these were just dreams. All of these will transform to my old class in SAMTTAJ.

Hoping that my old friends will surround me.

I opened my eyes.

Nothing change. It's still 1 Abu Bakar, not 1 Ikhlas that I hoped for.

I cried.

I cried to sleep. Then, I heard a knock. I woke up and it was my classmate. "Perhimpunan.."

"Oh, ok ", I answered, flustered. I dragged myself to the assembly feeling miserable.

But hey, it wasn't really that bad

Now, I'm already in Form 4 in Maahad. Form 1 was just immature times.

Alhamdulilah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulilah.

I've got a lot more friends, even best friends and I learned a lot here.

We can't stay put in one place right? This world is meant to be explored. (What I'm talking about? I don't know, it somehow doesn't make much sense though with my story)

I don't regret it at all.
But, yeah, sometimes I do wonder what if I didn't move in the first place?

What happened is the best one.

Well, we plan Allah decide.  Allah is the best planner after all. He don't give what we want but what we need.

So, that's all for now.

Unfortunately...

Superb Gathering!

Alhamdulillah~

After 3 painful weeks of EXAM!

2 weeks of works and boredom!

...I finally can release my pressure and do something fun

...in 4 IBS class gathering

...at Sunway Pyramid!

First, we went for skating. Already used to it, but this time I got a lot of 'students' to help and teach.

Lot more falls. Haha. 

Careful! IBS troops ready!

Then, we went for Laser Tag. It's like a paintball but a modern one. Not painful and you won't 'die'. This was really fun. Really! Try it! We went for Girls against Boys.

Still wondering who won though...

Gosh! We were so hungry. So, we makan-makan at Pizza Hut. 

Thanks everyone for coming and made my day filled with fun and laugh. Hope we can meet again and have a lot more fun!

*Credits to my brother, Afiq for being the photographer.

Dilema Budak Sekolah Agama

This is a survey that I've just done at....... .a group in Facebook.

I've done a poll and these are their responses. (it's a long post, so just bear with it)

FIRST! (26 votes)

• "Rasa bersalah buat benda lagha tapi.......... buat jugak" 

Komen:  These days, there's too much entertainment, social webs, it's hard for us not to involve. And it's because they want to follow the trend. They don't want to be called old-fashioned. This is what I'm facing too right now.

It's okay to do these things BUT, not too excessive until you become obsessed with artists, songs and others (but that's what happening). Until it disturbs our studies! And worse, our relationship with Allah! Na'uzubillah.  Berpada-pada,ok!
 If dah rasa bersalah tu, kurangkan! 

SECOND~(23 votes)

• "Dipandang baik oleh semua orang , tapi sebenarnya kita ni takdelah baik sangat"

Komen: Of course! You're studying in an Islamic school and you're studying about Islam. Islam teaches you to be good. Of course-lah you have to be good! Of course-lah orang pandang kita ni baik.

Memanglah kita ni tak baik sangat. Solat tak khusyuk, Surah Yasin pun kadang-kadang sangkut. Ber-twitting, Facebook sampai pagi.

Nobody's perfect. So, with those impression, why don't you take it as a motivation to try to improve yourself jadi lebih baik. Right?


THIRD...(14 votes)

• "Di'cop' ustaz/ustazah/imam muda dan yang sewaktu dengannya" 

Komen: Biasalah! Memanglah kadang-kadang rasa macam nak bagi buku lima dekat pipi gebu mereka but, it's better that they call you ustaz/ustazah than mat rempit, right?

Ni lebih kurang je dengan yang lagi satu. Take this to also motivate yourself to be as good as ustaz/ustazah. Maybe better than that! 

• "Tak rasa macam budak sekolah agama pun"

Komen: Kenapa ye? Tak rasa macam budak sekolah agama ke, tak rasa macam orang Islam?

Renung-renungkan. Don't blame the others. Think about it. Improve yourself, not as a 'budak sekolah agama' but as a better MUSLIM.

FORTH! (9 votes)

• "Tak dapat nak jawab soalan agama dan B. Arab bila ditanya"

Komen: That means you have a lot to learn and......pay attention during the class! 

Tapi, kalau soalan agama atau B. Arab tahap mega tu, boleh dimaafkanlah kot.

FIFTH...(7 votes)

• "Nak tegur ke tak nak?"

Komen: We are 'budak sekolah agama'. So, we have some advanced religious knowledge than 'budak sekolah biasa'. And when we saw someone did a mistake like in solat or aurat kan. There's always a voice in our head saying "Nak tegur ke tak nak?".

And it's harder if it's a stranger. Hardest if it's someone who is older than you.

And another voice came "Nanti dia fikir aku nak bajet pandai" or "Nanti dia fikir aku saja nak malukan dia"

And you end up.....

Not good. 
Siapa lagi nak tegur kalau bukan kita?!
But our mentality keeps us from it! Arggh! These voices are so freaking bad! Don't listen to them! Let the felling of guiltiness of not approaching the person haunts you~

"Nanti forever dia salah, SEBAB AKU TAK TEGUR.....pastu nanti aku kena soal kat akhirat....pastu..aku"

So, 'tegur' that person!

It's in the 5th place means they're not really haunted by this dilemma. That means........they do approach the people if they did a mistake OR they actually don't and think that this is not a thing to be concerned about (not good~). I'm not even sure.

Dan kalau nak tegur tu, tegurlah dengan berhikmah! Jangan main tegur melulu!

SIXTH~ (6 votes)

• "Jadi harapan dalam kalangan family/saudara kerana satu-satunya belajar agama"

Komen: Wow! Berat ni! Alhamdulillah, Allah nak suruh kau bimbing family/ saudara-saudara kau tu.

It's really a big responsiblity especially when they put high hopes to you. The 6 person who votes for this are guys. And yes, men are meant to lead.

So, GANBATTE, guys! Lead them!


SEVENTH! (5 votes)

• "Terasa sukar nak dakwah family/friends/saudara"

Komen: Almost the same with the above but, this one is somehow did out of responsibility and voluntarily and not because of high hopes people give. But, yeah it's almost the same. Dakwah memang kadang-kala agak sukar, especially to people who knows us. Especially when we are the ONLY ONE who is from 'sekolah agama'.

Be strong. Me, too, is facing this dilemma. And I find it hard. But I've tried, a bit and I'm still trying.

EIGTH... (2 votes)

• "Terasa awkward di tempat awam bila pakai tudung labuh/jubah apatah lagi bila diperhati"

Komen: I thought many would choose this, but fortunately, just two votes. Ok, firstly, there's no need to be so awkward. Ok, yeah it's kinda awkward to wear those but try to think that "Kau tutup aurat, buat apa nak malu?". You should be PROUD!

• "Kau?! Budak sekolah agama? Tak cayalah!

Komen: Ahah! Maybe it's the way you talk! Hey! Jangan mencarut! Improve your akhlak. Akhlak tu mencerminkan diri seseorang tu macam mana.

• "Sukar untuk socialize, lagi-lagi dengan yang berlainan jantina"

Komen: Well, this one. It always happen with old friends, cousins, no matter same gender or opposite gender because of different backgrounds. 

But in the 'sekolah agama' circle, it's always with the opposite gender, well, to certain people because this one got only two votes.

It's good that 'sekolah agama' environment didn't affect our social life BUT I'm afraid that we became too social because of the limit of socializing with the opposite gender in the school. That's what usually happening in social webs. 

NINTH, AND LAST~ (1 vote)

•  "Dipandang rendah, dicondemn dan yang sewaktu dengannya"

Komen: This only got one vote but still, we need to pay attention to it

Being condemned and underestimated by the community because we 'budak sekolah agama'? Just ignore them but if they condemn us because "Budak sekolah agama sekarang  ni sama je macam budak tak belajar dekat sekolah agama". Wohoh! That means we  really to fix our image as the people who are studying Islam. 

Not just fixing the image as a 'budak sekolah agama' but as a MUSLIM who is studying Qur'an, and Hadith! 

But there are 'budak sekolah agama' who is being underestimate by 'budak sekolah agama' themselves. True story, bro. This happens because of the judgement and impression towards a person. Not 'alim' and something like that. So immature...

CONCLUSION

Us, people around us and trend. That's what made us having these to face these dilemma. 

These days trend: fashion, entertainment, technology and ....bla bla bla. Most of it are against Islam's teachings. Too late. It's already become a part of our community's life.

People around us have been getting used to this trend and Islam's teachings become estranged. 

And we, 'budak sekolah agama' are trying to practice Islam in this community. But Islam is starting to secularize in our community without we realizing.

And we struggle, dilemmas come one by one. 

At the end, it all depend on ourselves and Allah. Our mentality, strength and faith.

And these dilemmas, shouldn't be faced by 'budak sekolah agama' only but by MUSLIMS. All Muslims suppose to sense this!

But Islam have been isolated day by day. 

So, it all goes to us 'budak sekolah agama' because we are still teenagers. Teenage is the age at its golden but many misused it to enjoy the worldly life.  

Teenagers are the hope of society, future's leaders. 

It all goes to us!  

Thanks for reading this decent post. Hope it's informational. Wassalam

Well, Raya~

Ramadhan dah habis dah... 
entah dapat jumpa lagi ke dengan dia tahun depan...

Shawal dah datang balik. So,.....

Selamat Hari Raya!

As usual, let the pictures tell the story!

One happy family!

Kami lima beradik

Cak!

Bak bidadari~

Di Kg. Bharu

So, dah makan sedap-sedap raya ni, jangan lupa puasa enam!

And a question! Which raya is the best? This year or last year? And why? In the comments section.

When Will it End?

It's Ramadhan. Tapi...

Kekejaman, di Syria.

Protes, di Mesir

Tak berpenghujung, di Palestin

Dan banyak lagi, Libya, Morocco.....

SYRIA...
It's been very long since it started. Since the Arab Spring.
Bashar's regime against his own citizens. Many lives have been taken. It's Ramadhan, but still, the brutality doesn't get any lesser.

When will it end? Only Allah knows.

 EGYPT
Ketika Mubarak jatuh, dan Morsi mengambil alih, they thought they've achieve freedom and victory.

But...there are still minorities who don't want Morsi. Minorities? No one thought that...
....it'll happens once again, another revolution.

Jatuhnya Presiden Morsi. Diambil alih oleh Abdul Fattah Al-Sisi, digelar Firaun moden. Penyokong Morsi menentang pengambilalihan ini, memihak kepada Morsi. Lalu, revolusi, protes semakin berleluasa. 'Perang' berlaku di antara yang memihak dan yang menentang.

Makin banyak nyawa yang terkorban. Siapa yang akan menang?

PALESTINE
Palestine, an open-air prisoner. Prisoner of the innocents. Caged by ruthless Zionists Israelis. Being bombed and shot for nothing. Being oppressed and lands taken.

Once, there were supply given by Egypt through Rafah and tunnels. That were the only connection they have with the outside world. But, since the fall of Morsi, the tunnels were collapsed, Rafah was closed by the Egyptians military themselves.

Now, they're stuck, lack of supply for oil, food and other basic needs.

But, Allah will always help his servants. Allah dah janji, Palestine will be free.

"We know too well that our freedom is incomplete without the freedom of Palestinians" - Nelson Mandela

Tengok, orang kafir pun cakap macam tu.

May Allah bless them, especially in this holy month of Ramadhan. Grant them shahid, Ya Allah. They're my brothers. They're my sisters. May victory and happiness be granted for Your faithful servants.
Friends, let's pray for them. Doa itu senjata orang Islam. Orang kafir mana ada senjata ni.

Let's pray for them!!

Why I Wrote in English?

Sometimes, I wonder too. Some of my friends prefer if I wrote this blog in Malay.

"Oh, nak tunjuk terer English lah ni".
No way!


After I thought for a while. There are a few reasons why.

• WHAT TO CALL MYSELF?
• Saya?

I started blogging when I was 11. So, I use 'saya' which if I read back seems quite immature. It's ok if it's for telling story, but to tell about what's happening, what do you think, it doesn't seem right. 

Seriously, I facepalm everytime I read my old posts.

Ya Allah,Why did I wrote that in the first place! So, 'saya' is rejected. I don't remember when I last use 'saya'.

• Aku..

'Aku' seems ok but....there are older readers who read my blog such as my elder brother and sometimes my elder sisters. And, 'aku' seems quite rude and harsh sometimes. If you read it, it seems like..not me. Well, I admit I use 'aku' when I converse, BUT only with my friends! And 'aku' doesn't seem rude if you use to teall stories

So, 'aku' is not used.

• Kita, kita!

NO WAY! I'll never use that in a million years!!

• Ana~

Mmmm, *cough* 

Eheh, I've thoughts of using this before but...eheh, ehehe. Rasa tak selesa sikit. Rasa 'baik' sangat padahal dekat luar tu cakap 'aku' juga. Rasa macam tak sesuai. 

• I,

Yes, this is what I'm currently using right now. BUT! I don't want to use 'I' like..."I rasa you patut". Tak suka Campur-campur. Rosak bahasa.

AND that's why I wrote in English.

• IMPROVE ENGLISH!

I'm trying to improve my English. Writing posts is like writing an essay right? Well, kinda.. But still, it quite improving my English, alhamdulillah~

• WHO KNOWS...

Who knows my blog is being read by people from other countries. WHO KNOWS..maybe. Though it seems quite unlikely.

So, that's why I use English. To fulfill the reader's interest and to make them understand my posts, I only use simple English. Don't worry, I'm not really good in English.

I also put some 'Malay' words sometimes. There are also times I post in Malay.

• SUKA HATI

........saya lah~!

So, I guess that's all for now. SALAM RAMADHAN! Don't be bothered by Raya yet! Ramadhan nangis kang...

Invisible...

That's what I feel..

...almost everytime at school.


Well, I didn't cry... yet. But... there are times I almost.

...because I feel like I'm not there.

It feels like nobody realizes me even when I'm trying to say something. Or said something.

Nobody notices that I'm there. Or WAS there.

I've been trying to show myself to....everyone but I'm just a no one.

Invisible I am.

Even 'you' didn't realize me. 'You' seem to start to distant yourself from me. I feel like there's a wall you build between us. I probably shouldn't call 'you' 'best' friend in the first place, right?

It hurts. Sometimes I pretend  that I'm sick or exaggerate to get 'your' attention but, you didn't seem to care.

 I wanna tell stories and my feelings but...it seems like they're not interested to it, including 'you'. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I'm being boring. I'm sorry that I tell you a lame story. It's boring, eh?

But 'you' laughed, or at least smile when you listen to other person's story. Or responded...

..but mine, you didn't much...I must be a boring friend. She's way funnier than me.They're way funnier.
I'm sorry.

If you're sad, come to me. But I think you already have a better person to tell your worries to. She's way nicer than me.........
... I'm sorry if I'm not there when you're depressed, when you're sad. I'm REALLY sorry.

If only 'you' read this. If only, 'you' read this, how would you react? Well, I don't think 'you' would read this, ever.

And would they read it and care? I don't know.

Invisible...alone...sad....and then a fake smile, I'm tired of it.

But I'm still not crying because I still have my family. Kazoku. ^.^

And I still have Him, Allah. He's always be there...<3 br="" nbsp="">

Happy Nuzul Qur'an by the way! Wassalam

Allah...

I just had a bad week, last week.

1. I've been anticipating for MUSLEH competition next week since the holiday! BUT, my hopes were crushed and crumpled. We couldn't participate it because of some reasons. School stuff.
2. And then at the same day, I got my Physics paper which we've been waiting for so long to get and..... it's really hard to smile after that. It was TERRIBLE! My friend tried to cheer me up and yeah, I forced myself to smile (and I kept singing Bad Day)
3. Also, in that week, I felt ignored by my friends. I don't know whether it's just me being too sensitive OR they really do ignore me.

Which reminded me of my old friends, already-move-to-other-school friends and my FAMILY.

I really want to call my mother badly but.... I'm afraid I'll cry and don't really know what to say. (I don't want her to find out my Physics just yet)

And next week, I, oops, I mean WE have to take over the school's reign from the Form 5s. And i have to prepare myself and brace my self for the job.

It was a bad week with the fact that my birthday was just around the corner (22nd June, Sat)

I almost cried because all of this, BUT then I tell myself, "Why should I cry? This is nothing!"

Allah is probably trying to test me right now.

I also realized that I always forget Him.


Selangkah ku pergi dari Mu, selangkah Kau dekat padaku.

Selangkah ku padaMu, seribu langkah kau pada ku.

Malunya aku...

Ikhwan! Jadi 'Sebelah Sayap' Aku, Boleh?

Another video from Matluthfi!

I bet most of you have watched it. Just wanna give some of my thoughts about this video, and bercakap tentang ukhuwah ye di situ.

The video made me smile~ ^.^

 Matluthfi had made another amazing video that left me thinking again and again.

To hope, I need to fear..

I actually wanna elaborate more but it's gonna be too long and yeah, let's just talk about ukhuwah!

A GOOD IKHWAN IS THE ONE WHO! :

• HIS ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!

It is! Look how Luthfi try to help his drunkard friend, Ihsan. He didn't really talk or try to preach his friend much. But he did his best to help him.

He listened to him when he's in trouble.
He help to trash those liquors.
He gave a simple initiative for him to change slowly, he gave HOPE ^.^ (that's what people are lacking)

While the other friend, keep preaching him, in a wrong way. He seems to try to find his mistakes than helping him. I don't even think that he acted as a friend, or a brother. 

He wasn't there when Ihsan was in trouble.
He hastily blaming him.
He don't understand people's feeling!

• UNDERSTANDS HIS 'BROTHER'

Ihsan, the drunkard KNOWS that liquor is haram in Islam. So, Reefqi must understand that. 

The problem is, Ihsan doesn't know how to stop cause he have to fight his emotions with those liquor. Do you think it's easy for a drunkard to stop drinking!? It's like trying to stop smoking or drugs.

And another problem is that he got a very dark family background. His father is a drunkard. So, it's hard for him cause he already used to it! He already used to have liquors as the solution for all his emotional problems.

So, if his friend keep preaching him (seem more like perli) and blaming him for that, it's a bit useless.

I mean like, WHO DOESN'T KNOW THAT LIQUOR IS HARAM!? Most Muslims do.

So, Reefqi must understands that Ihsan can't just stop drinking just like that!

Ihsan needs someone to support him to stop drinking those alcohols. He needs a friend to lead him to Allah slowly because he started to understand Islam a bit late. And Luthfi try to.

• THINKS POSITIVE 

Well, Reefqi suggested that Ihsan does not believe in Allah because he still drinks liquor.

And...yeah, you know what I'm trying to say right?

Doesn't mean when someone does a bad thing, he's a bad person, right?

And right now, in our society, ramai yang TAHU tapi ramai yang tak SEDAR. Bahaya tu!

But in this case, sesetengah TAHU dan SEDAR, but they don't know how or afraid to change! Sebab stigma masyarakat kita yang negatif.

"Apa buang tabiat ke budak ni?"

"Alaah, bajet je tu nak tobat.."

"Kau! Hijrah! Eish, orang macam kau ni nak tobat, tak caye aku!"

"Kau dosa banyak gila! Tuhan nak ampunkan ke?"

PEOPLE CHANGE! They're not animals, who eat the same type of food and habit until they die! (well, there are some rare cases)

Kerana stigma negatif ni, orang takut nak berubah. So, as a good friend, kalau rasa macam tak cukup ilmu tu, jangan risau. Anda patutnya bertindak sebagai SAHABAT bukan sebagai CIKGU atau MOTIVATOR dengan sijil PhD.

SAHABAT yang baik kena positif dan bagi harapan! Ajaklah kawan untuk buat baik. Tak perlu pot pet sangat. Just ajak mereka bila kita nak solat ke, pergi masjid, pergi ceramah, study, and with hopes, they'll get used to it and change!

YOU'RE A FRIEND, NOT A TEACHER or a COUNSELOR. You don't really need nice words. So act like one! Just be there for them! Sokong, jangan condemn. Jadi sebelah sayapnya untuk dia terus terbang. 

Kita umat Islam kan bersaudara~!

"If religion fails to offer hope, it is not divinely from God"

So, hayatilah Islam. Jika tidak, kita rasa kosong.

NO INTERNET!

The internet connection at my house is down for a moment..well, till now actually.

The cause? I'm not sure but I think it is caused by the heavy rain few days ago.

And it's REALLY, REALLY frustrating. Just imagine, you are having a holiday for a week but there's no internet....

IT'S FREAKING FRUSTRATING!

I can't procrastinate...

BUT, the benefit is...I got to finish my homeworks at least, due to no presence of the Internet.

So,the only chance for me to use the Internet is at the library, right now, when I was writing this post.

Rite now, there's only 5 minutes left for me to use the Internet.

So, that's all for now.

wassalam~

Experiences...

Masha-Allah...


It's HOLIDAY! Haha, at last!

How long have it been?
2 months I guess, leaving this blog un-updated.

While my life is actually updated a lot.

IDC...

...exams (the result was freaking 'awesome', I wanna puke)

.... played hockey 4 school! (I'm new to it and it's fun and awesome~)

....judging at KDU (a whole new experience! Got to know a lot of people..)

...vacation with friends at Penang

... and currently, English drama in district level.

That's a lot for the first months. But now, I'm in a dilemma.

Our debate trainer, Brother Fakhry offered me and the others to participate in a Debate Open where Ill be teamed up with him. I really want to join it! But I have to pay quite a lot for it. But my parents don't really care about the fee, so...I'll think I'll participate the debate..

TAPI....

I'm also participating in the English drama. They didn't clash with each other but...they'll be held very close to each other. So, should I let go of this drama competition? Or, just try to cope with two competitions? OR, let go of the debate competition? No no no..

So, what do you think?

2013 Kickstart

Assalamulaikum! It's been about 2 weeks of 2013. Wow, so fast yeah! And I'm already in my Form 4. You know what, although SPM is still like far away but I can feel the tense, the pressure already. Well, form 4 is the time when you'll start to get busy. No matter what. Unless if you're some kind of ignorant or just don't want to get involved with even a slight stuff.

 And the teachers are, okay je. BUT! There's one problem. Most of the teachers would probably teach us halfway. Why? Because some of them are retiring. Some will continue their studies at the universities and few will soon have babies!

 Why!? Why now!? Why us? Well, we can't stop them, do we? They have their life!

  I have to focus this year. No play-play! There's no such thing as honeymoon year. Even if there's one, it happenes after you get married.

By the way, I got another nephew called Ilyas! Two nephews in a year. Wow! Congrats Kak Izzah!