2014, Everything is Just About to Begin

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Assalamualaikum, peace be upon you. It's 2014. And it's SPM for me this year! I'm still trying to swallow the truth...

"SPM, penentu hala tuju kehidupanmu"

So, I have to work harder than I did before. This is no more child's play.

New year; last year in Maahad, last year in school!

New class;  I'm still in the type of class where boys are still in the endangered species category. And for the first time (ever!) in school life, I sit at the most front in class. Ok, not really the most front. The most front among the girls, but just behind the guys. Awkward~

New azam; let's just keep it to myself. My 'azam' is boring, really.

New friends; not really new, because I already know most of them. But, closer! Yang jauh didekatkan, yang dekat dieratkan! Ceh!

New CHALLENGES; SPM, of course. But it's not just about that. Well, I'm going to a new phase of life. Not the real life yet but still, let's challenge ourselves, or else we can't cope with the world out there.

Something tells me it's gonna be an interesting year~ I hope it is!

Last year in school, last year in Bumi Ulama', last year to be childish!
I need to grow up, prepare before the reality hit my face hard. My life is just about to begin. OUR life is just about to begin guys! Prepare for the REAL world.

May Allah guides and ease my way...

I Wish - Part One

This is a fictitious short story. Any resemblance and similarity are coincidences.

My eyes darted on the wide opened Chemistry book but my mind is somewhere else far from the compounds and experiments.

I was reminiscing the night, around 10 years ago.
I don't know why but the memory, the incident flashed into my mind so clearly this time.

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3 A.M, I ran to the bathroom anxiously. I switched on all the lights, all the way to the bathroom. I forced myself to go alone. Ummi said there's no such things as ghosts. Even if there was one, it won't disturb me because I'm a good girl.

 And I don't want to wake Along. Ummi said she was not well.
I can see that. She always coughed and had a very terrible headache that made her moaned. Like Abi used to have.
It seems painful but I never saw her cried. Not even once. Like Abi...

After a while, I ran back to the bed but I found Along already woke up.

"Did you go to the toilet, Aisha?" Along asked.

"Yes", I answered.

"Alone?"

I nodded enthusiastically.

"Why don't you wake me? Aren't you scared?" while rubbing her eyes

"Ummi said you're not well and not to wake you up, so....I..",

Along smiled and listened to my story attentively.

"....so, there's no need to be afraid!", I finished my last sentence.

"Waaah, you're so brave now", she praised me with her hand on my bushy hair.

Then, she got off the bed with all her might. Looking frail and weak, I assisted her.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I want to perform 'salah'. Do you want to join?"

***To be continued***
 

It Is Certain

Nothing is certain

We can't make sure that we gonna graduate one day

We can't make sure we'll get married

We can't also make sure that we'll see tomorrow

You can't even make sure that you'll finish reading this post

But one thing is certain...

Death.


Be ready. It'll come any second, anywhere.
It can't be avoided.

No matter how much you plead, beg and cry. Your life will still be taken away
And that's the bridge to the afterlife

All that's left, heaven and hell. Which would you choose?

Not even one person would wanna choose hell.
But are you qualified enough for Heaven?

Think about it.

Do something.

Now.

The clock is ticking

Death won't delay.

No Regrets

Have you ever hope that you could rewind the time so badly and did the right thing?

That's what I felt when I was in Form 1.

At that time, I moved  to Maahad Hamidiah after three months at SAMTTAJ. I don't know why, but I just move without telling my SAMTTAJ friends, at all.

And I felt really guilty about it.

Then, I reached Maahad, expecting to see Maziah, my best friend during primary school. Coincidently, I was put in the same class with her. I was really happy because everyone were strangers but her. The others did try to be friendly with me but still, I feel lonely.

Maziah seemed so excited too when she saw me. She helped me with everything. Unfortunately, I didn't get the hostel offer, YET. So, I became 'budak luar' for a few days.

I was alone. Completely alone, I felt like I wanna cry. But when I saw my mother, fetching me after school, my heart scream, "I'm out of here!". At home, I begged my mother that I wanna go back to SAMTTAJ but she refused. My father already paid the fee and she said that I'll get used to my new school someday.

Well, I don't have any choice but to stay at Maahad.

I really hated myself for moving to Maahad at that time.

Why did I decide to move? I really hated myself for taking that decision.

And there was this morning, I reached Maahad quite early. I sat in the class alone. I looked around the class 1 Abu Bakar and shut my eyes for a few minutes, hoping that all of these were just dreams. All of these will transform to my old class in SAMTTAJ.

Hoping that my old friends will surround me.

I opened my eyes.

Nothing change. It's still 1 Abu Bakar, not 1 Ikhlas that I hoped for.

I cried.

I cried to sleep. Then, I heard a knock. I woke up and it was my classmate. "Perhimpunan.."

"Oh, ok ", I answered, flustered. I dragged myself to the assembly feeling miserable.

But hey, it wasn't really that bad

Now, I'm already in Form 4 in Maahad. Form 1 was just immature times.

Alhamdulilah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulilah.

I've got a lot more friends, even best friends and I learned a lot here.

We can't stay put in one place right? This world is meant to be explored. (What I'm talking about? I don't know, it somehow doesn't make much sense though with my story)

I don't regret it at all.
But, yeah, sometimes I do wonder what if I didn't move in the first place?

What happened is the best one.

Well, we plan Allah decide.  Allah is the best planner after all. He don't give what we want but what we need.

So, that's all for now.

Unfortunately...

Superb Gathering!

Alhamdulillah~

After 3 painful weeks of EXAM!

2 weeks of works and boredom!

...I finally can release my pressure and do something fun

...in 4 IBS class gathering

...at Sunway Pyramid!

First, we went for skating. Already used to it, but this time I got a lot of 'students' to help and teach.

Lot more falls. Haha. 

Careful! IBS troops ready!

Then, we went for Laser Tag. It's like a paintball but a modern one. Not painful and you won't 'die'. This was really fun. Really! Try it! We went for Girls against Boys.

Still wondering who won though...

Gosh! We were so hungry. So, we makan-makan at Pizza Hut. 

Thanks everyone for coming and made my day filled with fun and laugh. Hope we can meet again and have a lot more fun!

*Credits to my brother, Afiq for being the photographer.