When Will it End?

It's Ramadhan. Tapi...

Kekejaman, di Syria.

Protes, di Mesir

Tak berpenghujung, di Palestin

Dan banyak lagi, Libya, Morocco.....

SYRIA...
It's been very long since it started. Since the Arab Spring.
Bashar's regime against his own citizens. Many lives have been taken. It's Ramadhan, but still, the brutality doesn't get any lesser.

When will it end? Only Allah knows.

 EGYPT
Ketika Mubarak jatuh, dan Morsi mengambil alih, they thought they've achieve freedom and victory.

But...there are still minorities who don't want Morsi. Minorities? No one thought that...
....it'll happens once again, another revolution.

Jatuhnya Presiden Morsi. Diambil alih oleh Abdul Fattah Al-Sisi, digelar Firaun moden. Penyokong Morsi menentang pengambilalihan ini, memihak kepada Morsi. Lalu, revolusi, protes semakin berleluasa. 'Perang' berlaku di antara yang memihak dan yang menentang.

Makin banyak nyawa yang terkorban. Siapa yang akan menang?

PALESTINE
Palestine, an open-air prisoner. Prisoner of the innocents. Caged by ruthless Zionists Israelis. Being bombed and shot for nothing. Being oppressed and lands taken.

Once, there were supply given by Egypt through Rafah and tunnels. That were the only connection they have with the outside world. But, since the fall of Morsi, the tunnels were collapsed, Rafah was closed by the Egyptians military themselves.

Now, they're stuck, lack of supply for oil, food and other basic needs.

But, Allah will always help his servants. Allah dah janji, Palestine will be free.

"We know too well that our freedom is incomplete without the freedom of Palestinians" - Nelson Mandela

Tengok, orang kafir pun cakap macam tu.

May Allah bless them, especially in this holy month of Ramadhan. Grant them shahid, Ya Allah. They're my brothers. They're my sisters. May victory and happiness be granted for Your faithful servants.
Friends, let's pray for them. Doa itu senjata orang Islam. Orang kafir mana ada senjata ni.

Let's pray for them!!

Why I Wrote in English?

Sometimes, I wonder too. Some of my friends prefer if I wrote this blog in Malay.

"Oh, nak tunjuk terer English lah ni".
No way!


After I thought for a while. There are a few reasons why.

• WHAT TO CALL MYSELF?
• Saya?

I started blogging when I was 11. So, I use 'saya' which if I read back seems quite immature. It's ok if it's for telling story, but to tell about what's happening, what do you think, it doesn't seem right. 

Seriously, I facepalm everytime I read my old posts.

Ya Allah,Why did I wrote that in the first place! So, 'saya' is rejected. I don't remember when I last use 'saya'.

• Aku..

'Aku' seems ok but....there are older readers who read my blog such as my elder brother and sometimes my elder sisters. And, 'aku' seems quite rude and harsh sometimes. If you read it, it seems like..not me. Well, I admit I use 'aku' when I converse, BUT only with my friends! And 'aku' doesn't seem rude if you use to teall stories

So, 'aku' is not used.

• Kita, kita!

NO WAY! I'll never use that in a million years!!

• Ana~

Mmmm, *cough* 

Eheh, I've thoughts of using this before but...eheh, ehehe. Rasa tak selesa sikit. Rasa 'baik' sangat padahal dekat luar tu cakap 'aku' juga. Rasa macam tak sesuai. 

• I,

Yes, this is what I'm currently using right now. BUT! I don't want to use 'I' like..."I rasa you patut". Tak suka Campur-campur. Rosak bahasa.

AND that's why I wrote in English.

• IMPROVE ENGLISH!

I'm trying to improve my English. Writing posts is like writing an essay right? Well, kinda.. But still, it quite improving my English, alhamdulillah~

• WHO KNOWS...

Who knows my blog is being read by people from other countries. WHO KNOWS..maybe. Though it seems quite unlikely.

So, that's why I use English. To fulfill the reader's interest and to make them understand my posts, I only use simple English. Don't worry, I'm not really good in English.

I also put some 'Malay' words sometimes. There are also times I post in Malay.

• SUKA HATI

........saya lah~!

So, I guess that's all for now. SALAM RAMADHAN! Don't be bothered by Raya yet! Ramadhan nangis kang...

Invisible...

That's what I feel..

...almost everytime at school.


Well, I didn't cry... yet. But... there are times I almost.

...because I feel like I'm not there.

It feels like nobody realizes me even when I'm trying to say something. Or said something.

Nobody notices that I'm there. Or WAS there.

I've been trying to show myself to....everyone but I'm just a no one.

Invisible I am.

Even 'you' didn't realize me. 'You' seem to start to distant yourself from me. I feel like there's a wall you build between us. I probably shouldn't call 'you' 'best' friend in the first place, right?

It hurts. Sometimes I pretend  that I'm sick or exaggerate to get 'your' attention but, you didn't seem to care.

 I wanna tell stories and my feelings but...it seems like they're not interested to it, including 'you'. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I'm being boring. I'm sorry that I tell you a lame story. It's boring, eh?

But 'you' laughed, or at least smile when you listen to other person's story. Or responded...

..but mine, you didn't much...I must be a boring friend. She's way funnier than me.They're way funnier.
I'm sorry.

If you're sad, come to me. But I think you already have a better person to tell your worries to. She's way nicer than me.........
... I'm sorry if I'm not there when you're depressed, when you're sad. I'm REALLY sorry.

If only 'you' read this. If only, 'you' read this, how would you react? Well, I don't think 'you' would read this, ever.

And would they read it and care? I don't know.

Invisible...alone...sad....and then a fake smile, I'm tired of it.

But I'm still not crying because I still have my family. Kazoku. ^.^

And I still have Him, Allah. He's always be there...<3 br="" nbsp="">

Happy Nuzul Qur'an by the way! Wassalam

Allah...

I just had a bad week, last week.

1. I've been anticipating for MUSLEH competition next week since the holiday! BUT, my hopes were crushed and crumpled. We couldn't participate it because of some reasons. School stuff.
2. And then at the same day, I got my Physics paper which we've been waiting for so long to get and..... it's really hard to smile after that. It was TERRIBLE! My friend tried to cheer me up and yeah, I forced myself to smile (and I kept singing Bad Day)
3. Also, in that week, I felt ignored by my friends. I don't know whether it's just me being too sensitive OR they really do ignore me.

Which reminded me of my old friends, already-move-to-other-school friends and my FAMILY.

I really want to call my mother badly but.... I'm afraid I'll cry and don't really know what to say. (I don't want her to find out my Physics just yet)

And next week, I, oops, I mean WE have to take over the school's reign from the Form 5s. And i have to prepare myself and brace my self for the job.

It was a bad week with the fact that my birthday was just around the corner (22nd June, Sat)

I almost cried because all of this, BUT then I tell myself, "Why should I cry? This is nothing!"

Allah is probably trying to test me right now.

I also realized that I always forget Him.


Selangkah ku pergi dari Mu, selangkah Kau dekat padaku.

Selangkah ku padaMu, seribu langkah kau pada ku.

Malunya aku...

Ikhwan! Jadi 'Sebelah Sayap' Aku, Boleh?

Another video from Matluthfi!

I bet most of you have watched it. Just wanna give some of my thoughts about this video, and bercakap tentang ukhuwah ye di situ.

The video made me smile~ ^.^

 Matluthfi had made another amazing video that left me thinking again and again.

To hope, I need to fear..

I actually wanna elaborate more but it's gonna be too long and yeah, let's just talk about ukhuwah!

A GOOD IKHWAN IS THE ONE WHO! :

• HIS ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!

It is! Look how Luthfi try to help his drunkard friend, Ihsan. He didn't really talk or try to preach his friend much. But he did his best to help him.

He listened to him when he's in trouble.
He help to trash those liquors.
He gave a simple initiative for him to change slowly, he gave HOPE ^.^ (that's what people are lacking)

While the other friend, keep preaching him, in a wrong way. He seems to try to find his mistakes than helping him. I don't even think that he acted as a friend, or a brother. 

He wasn't there when Ihsan was in trouble.
He hastily blaming him.
He don't understand people's feeling!

• UNDERSTANDS HIS 'BROTHER'

Ihsan, the drunkard KNOWS that liquor is haram in Islam. So, Reefqi must understand that. 

The problem is, Ihsan doesn't know how to stop cause he have to fight his emotions with those liquor. Do you think it's easy for a drunkard to stop drinking!? It's like trying to stop smoking or drugs.

And another problem is that he got a very dark family background. His father is a drunkard. So, it's hard for him cause he already used to it! He already used to have liquors as the solution for all his emotional problems.

So, if his friend keep preaching him (seem more like perli) and blaming him for that, it's a bit useless.

I mean like, WHO DOESN'T KNOW THAT LIQUOR IS HARAM!? Most Muslims do.

So, Reefqi must understands that Ihsan can't just stop drinking just like that!

Ihsan needs someone to support him to stop drinking those alcohols. He needs a friend to lead him to Allah slowly because he started to understand Islam a bit late. And Luthfi try to.

• THINKS POSITIVE 

Well, Reefqi suggested that Ihsan does not believe in Allah because he still drinks liquor.

And...yeah, you know what I'm trying to say right?

Doesn't mean when someone does a bad thing, he's a bad person, right?

And right now, in our society, ramai yang TAHU tapi ramai yang tak SEDAR. Bahaya tu!

But in this case, sesetengah TAHU dan SEDAR, but they don't know how or afraid to change! Sebab stigma masyarakat kita yang negatif.

"Apa buang tabiat ke budak ni?"

"Alaah, bajet je tu nak tobat.."

"Kau! Hijrah! Eish, orang macam kau ni nak tobat, tak caye aku!"

"Kau dosa banyak gila! Tuhan nak ampunkan ke?"

PEOPLE CHANGE! They're not animals, who eat the same type of food and habit until they die! (well, there are some rare cases)

Kerana stigma negatif ni, orang takut nak berubah. So, as a good friend, kalau rasa macam tak cukup ilmu tu, jangan risau. Anda patutnya bertindak sebagai SAHABAT bukan sebagai CIKGU atau MOTIVATOR dengan sijil PhD.

SAHABAT yang baik kena positif dan bagi harapan! Ajaklah kawan untuk buat baik. Tak perlu pot pet sangat. Just ajak mereka bila kita nak solat ke, pergi masjid, pergi ceramah, study, and with hopes, they'll get used to it and change!

YOU'RE A FRIEND, NOT A TEACHER or a COUNSELOR. You don't really need nice words. So act like one! Just be there for them! Sokong, jangan condemn. Jadi sebelah sayapnya untuk dia terus terbang. 

Kita umat Islam kan bersaudara~!

"If religion fails to offer hope, it is not divinely from God"

So, hayatilah Islam. Jika tidak, kita rasa kosong.